Well the job hunt is still in full force and the results continue to be less than pathetic. As a result I seem to have just stopped doing any cool renovations even as I step over the materials lying around the house. I appear to be experiencing some sort of juvenile reaction to being unemployed, as if to say to the world "if I can't do what I want, I'm doing nothing".
So with plenty of time on my hands, I sat on the patio early this morning having coffee. Watching cars going by; their drivers obviously employed, I had the most horrible, petty, bitchy, little thought of which I should be ashamed.
I actually said out loud "you know, some of those people look really stupid and they have jobs".
Yep, I went there! I said it and now it's out there in the universe and I can't take it back.
Do not get all high and mighty, or act as if you're appalled by my confession. You've all thought it, but you guys want to be nice. I don't play nice. I play fair and I know an idiot when I see one.
I was so pissed off and it was only 6:30 am. I was full of spit and vinegar and the sun wasn't even up. (Yeah I know that spit and vinegar line rolls off the tongue like Shakespeare uh? It's a gift.)
I was really letting it get to me. I started to self talk myself down off the ledge with all of the warm fuzzy phrases that any of us who've been therapized (I know it's not a word) throw at ourselves during desperate times and luckily for you, I've jotted them down in my humble little blog.
You're an incredible woman with so much to offer.
You can make this a learning experience.
Good things come to those who wait.
It'll all work out in the end.
The perfect job is just around the corner.
I'm going to call bullshit on every single one of those, AND if anyone utters them in my presence while I'm still unemployed I will disembowel them with my bare hands. Are we all clear on the rules? Wow, I feel better already.
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